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Silk Art Gladys Villalobos Demo 1

Not giving up

 Into February 2021... I decided I can't give up, I'm brain storming with so many ideas to put in place while I see and feel myself slowly loosing my independence.  My voice is fading, I can't work on my interpretation that much and petty cash is important. So, I'm reactivating my site with note cards, and at the same time trying to create awareness of ALS - Lou Gehry's disease - a motor neuron disease which fast or slow, leave you unable to move.  This is my project... I will not give up !

 January 2021

And so...a new year! Slowly progressing still with lots to keep me entertain. Covid is causing the usual mess all over the world but there's always "the hope" for the better as is everything else that consumes us.

My voice is bothering me, can't talk much without making a high pitch sound and loosing it. I don't talk much... I'll try to focus  in my Tobii Dynavox and try to type with my eyes and I will continue to express my thoughts.

In the meantime, I’ve been slightly on a down slope 😌

missing getting in the kitchen... chopping garlic, onions, tomatoes, peppers, cooking, eating and drinking with some “glamour”... a zippy cup will do. Back to my projects in my website! Hope to really launch it “big”

  

November 2020...   Do I ?

Do I miss the days when I would jump out of bed, full of energy with my day ahead all planned up with activities ? 

Of course I do, who wouldn't . First part of the day , after showering, brushing and dressing... going to my workshop,, just to see  how my silk art work, from the day before, worked its way through the night. It was just Amazing !

today is today... I dread the morning, my first task, taking off the mask, I call it Hannibal... what a hassle.

Now, getting up... No wonder I identify myself with a Sloth... exactly!   Do I want to take a shower ? Do I want to dress for the day and get out of the Pj ..hum... exhausting. 

So, after staring at the ceiling for a while, looking at all the pictures, hangings around my walls which make me smile, I simple say to my self..."there's something good in every day"

 October 2020... Luckily for me, I'm within a 20% of ALS patients with  slow progression, and slow  it is,  I do as much as I can while I still can. I  love all the "toys" available for this and many other diseases alike and I'm taking advantage of them. I love riding in my scooter or portable electric chair to go  window shopping and feeling the air, the sun... my walker is not helping much but I'm sure glad I had it.

 July 2020...  “You have the power over your mind – not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength.”~ Marcus Aurelius.

 Jan 2020... It's hard to walk, can't let go of my walker. I feel bricks inside  pulling me down.  Everything has changed,  physical independence fades, but I'm still me.​

Today, my dreams are in my art work, in my memories. I write what I feel and through my writings I get strength.
So, moving forward.. I need to make my sun shine... day by day. ...
The best project I will ever work  on .... is Me...
art and music, the best medicine to stay strongg

ALS/PMA through my art to help me

I feel grateful … I have tools at my reach to help me on this relentless road, but most importantly the mind has to stay positively active. This is not a condition to live alone with. It’s not just the “someone” to help move you and help you with your needs. One needs company, friendship, kindness,  understanding. 

To help me cope with the lacks, I’m using the images I saved form my art works on silk and writing… call it poems, grant it, I’m not a poet, just expressing my self to help me cope.

A rubber bang around my fingers.

Can’t take it off,

Can’t move.

Mind oh mind… what do I do ?

“Just feel the breeze”

Close you eyes,

It feels good against your face,

Hear the voice of  Elly Bell

“Abuelita”

Lovely sound !

…the rubber bang is gone

Proud to say "My friend"

I tried to find words to describe a true friend... and ended up with Thank you … Thank you... Thank you. I know the meaning of true friendship. I have a true friend.

Gracias

Gracias

La edad golpea.

Quedan Recuerdos, momentos que marcan.

No se entiende como esa edad va actuando

Y seguimos con nuestro amor egoísta aferrándonos a

Como fueron, como queremos seguir viendo a nuestros

Ancianos sin percatarnos o preocuparnos por lo que en realidad necesitan.

Cuando se nos presentan situaciones que nos incapacitan, nos limitan, nos asustan, con lo que no podemos luchar, comenzamos a ver todo de otra manera. No volvemos vulnerables, ansiosos por cariño porque sabemos que se va….. como los ancianos.

Tratamos de aferrarnos a la alegría, a la luz del día al rayo de sol, a la vida.

Pero, hoy doy gracias a quienes brindan….

Esa preocupación incondicional para aquellos seres “queridos” que viven en esa edad avanzada y aquellos con condiciones incapacitantes.

Por el apoyo incondicional para que vivan mejor.

Por velar, por ayudar, por desearles lo mejor y que vivan mejor, sobre todo cuando se dice “querer” cuando se dice “familia, sangre” cuando se quiere de verdad.

Gracias por la intención de desear brindar una mejor calidad de vida.

Gracias por valorar la familia…

Pero… de intenciones no se vive, si no con acciones y hay que poner en una balanza, que es  mas importante que nuestros seres queridos ?

Strong ?

My oh my

Life gives you lessons and then you know who cares and who doesn’t

Who’s there by you when in need

Who’s there when you are afraid

Who’s there when you are facing the inevitable

Who asks “How are you ?”

Who loves you

Who cares