Blue and blue

Sometimes I feel blue, I feel I loose strength.... Do I walk with a strong image ? Everyone expects a lot from me. I'm doing the best I can to enjoy my life and be happy. I need this. Why do I need to be tested ? I'm physically independent ....yes I know my limitations and If  I say I'm going for my happiness, is because I know I can... and I will.  Sometimes I just need support, sometimes I just need someone to tell me everything is going to be fine.  Is it  I don't deserve this ? I sure believe I do. I need people to be happy for me. How can I ever sail out to reach my dream if I don't leave the shore ? Time is a luxury for me and I don't want to waist one minute of if.... however short, however long. And I will not ask myself, why ? why me ? It is what it is... it's for me to face and make the best out of it. I'm sure not missing my train.